Formal

Tomorrow is my boyfriends fraternities formal dance thingy. I'm super excited.. but very nervous.. I don't really know many of his frat brothers.. and i'm going to be hanging out with them all night tomorrow. but my boyfriends one friend talked to me on facebook. telling me everyones nice and him and his date will talk to me if noone else is. (: starting to feel welcome(:


Love,
Girl to the Left

Just a thought.

So i'm laying here thinking about my future. what i want. I'm really not sure what i want or where i want to be. i know what i'm going to do. Go to college. Be a nurse. but where am i going to be? and with who? When I'm older will i still be with my boyfriend? Will i still be living here? Will i look back and wish i had done things differently? i just hope not. thinking about my boyfriend. I love him. I never want to lose him. but what if i have to? what if we have to just be friends.. idk but my thoughts are we're way passed the friend zone. i don't think we could ever even possibly go back. i'm just trying to think of mistakes before i make them.

Love,
Girl to the Left.

Thoughts of my Love

This is more of a test than anything to see how this phone blogging thing works. but i still have something to complain about. My boyfriend is 20. i'm 17. thats not too bad considering its really only 3 years difference and our grade levels are only 2 years apart.. but still.. i'm lucky if i see him once a week. and it kills me. cuz if i was so incredibly in love with the guy it would be so much easier.. but the fact that i love him and i want to be with him ALL the time and i cant. he lives only like 20mins away from me.. but we've both got jobs and school to worry about.. and we cant always be driving back and forth.. we're both poor and dont have the money to be driving so much. gas here is like $3.50. So here i am. missing my boyfriend. wishing i could move out already and actually be with him :( this sucks.

Love,
Girl to the Left

The Wait Game

I feel like i'm always playing the wait game. no matter what it is. Just waiting for life. TRYING to live my life.. just not working out the way i want it to be. I am 17. and i won't be turning 18 til September. I'm sick and TIRED of being me. Being Stuck here! I'll have graduated high school and starting college before I'm even 18. this sucks. My best friend and i have been telling each other since freshman year in high school.. only 4 years. we can do it!.. only 3 years! 2 more years! OMG ITS SENIOR YEAR 1 MORE YEAR TO GO!! i have 2 months left of high school... and i've realized I HAVE SO MUCH MORE TIME TO WAIT. I'm ready to leave! I'm ready to live my life LIKE MY LIFE not like my parents think i should. I know i'm not the only one feeling like this. but i just needed to get it out. 

Love,
Girl to the Left.